I
The Lovers of Roissy
Her lover one day takes O for a walk in a section of the city where they
never go - the Montsouris Park. After they have taken a stroll in the
park, and have sat together side by side on the edge of a lawn, they
notice, at one corner of the park, at an intersection where there are
never any taxis, a car which, because of its meter, resembles a taxi.
"Get in," he says.
She gets in. It is autumn, and coming up to dusk. She is dressed as she
always is: high heels, a suit with a pleated skirt, a silk blouse, and
no hat. But long gloves which come up over the sleeves of her jacket,
and in her leather handbag she has her identification papers, her
compact, and her lipstick.
The taxi moves off slowly, the man still not having said a word to the
driver. But he pulls down the shades of the windows on both sides of the
car, and the shade on the back window. She has taken off her gloves,
thinking he wants to kiss her or that he wants her to caress him. But
instead he says:
"Your bag's in your way; let me have it."
She gives it to him. He puts it out of her reach and adds:
"You also have on too many clothes. Unfasten your stockings and roll
them down to above your knees. Here are some garters."
By now the taxi has picked up speed, and she has some trouble managing
it; she's also afraid the driver may turn around. Finally, though, the
stockings are rolled down, and she's embarrassed to feel her legs naked
and free beneath her silk slip. Besides, the loose garter-belt
suspenders are slipping back and forth.
"Unfasten your garter belt," he says, "and take off your panties."
That's easy enough, all she has to do is slip her hands behind her back
and raise herself slightly. He takes the garter belt and panties from
her, opens her bag and puts them in, then says:
"You shouldn't sit on your slip and skirt. Pull them up behind you and
sit directly on the seat."
The seat is made of some sort of imitation leather, which is slippery
and cold: it's quite an extraordinary sensation to feel it sticking to
your thighs. Then he says:
"Now put your gloves back on."
The taxi is still moving along at a good clip, and she doesn't dare ask
why René just sits there without moving or saying another word, nor can
she guess what all this means to him - having her there motionless,
silent, so stripped and exposed, so thoroughly gloved, in a black car
going God knows where. He hasn't told her what to do or what not to do,
but she's afraid either to cross her legs or press them together. She
sits with gloved hands braced on either side of her seat.
"Here we are," he says suddenly. Here we are: the taxi stops on a lovely
avenue, beneath a tree - they are plane trees - in front of some sort of
small private home which can be seen nestled between the courtyard and
the garden, the type of small private dwelling one finds along the
Faubourg Saint-Germain. The street lamps are some distance away, and it
is still fairly dark inside the car. Outside it is raining.
"Don't move," René says. "Sit perfectly still."
His hand reaches for the collar of her blouse, unties the bow, then
unbuttons the blouse. She leans forward slightly, thinking he wants to
fondle her breasts. No. He is merely groping for the shoulder straps of
her brassiere, which he snips with a small penknife. Then he takes it
off. Now, beneath her blouse, which he has buttoned back up, her breasts
are naked and free, as is the rest of her body, from waist to knee.
"Listen," he says. "Now you're ready. This is where I leave you. You're
to get out and go ring the doorbell. Follow whoever opens the door for
you, and do whatever you're told. If you hesitate about going in,
they'll come and take you in. If you don't obey immediately, they'll
force you to. Your bag? No, you have no further need for your bag.
You're merely the girl I'm furnishing. Yes, of course I'll be there. Now
run along."
Another version of the same beginning was simpler and more direct: the
young woman, dressed in the same way, was driven by her lover and an
unknown friend. The stranger was driving, the lover was seated next to
the young woman, and it was the unknown friend who explained to the
young woman that her lover had been entrusted with the task of getting
her ready, that he was going to tie her hands behind her back, unfasten
her stockings and roll them down, remove her garter belt, her panties,
and her brassiere, and blindfold her. That she would then be turned over
to the château, where in due course she would be instructed as to what
she should do. And, in fact, as soon as she had been thus undressed and
bound, they helped her to alight from the car after a trip that lasted
half an hour, guided her up a few steps and, with her blindfold still
on, through one or two doors. Then, when her blindfold was removed, she
found herself standing alone in a dark room, where they left her for
half an hour, or an hour, or two hours, I can't be sure, but it seemed
forever. Then, when at last the door was opened and the light turned on,
you could see that she had been waiting in a very conventional,
comfortable, yet distinctive room: there was a thick rug on the floor,
but not a stick of furniture, and all four walls were lined with
closets. The door had been opened by two women, two young and beautiful
women dressed in the garb of pretty eighteenth-century chambermaids:
full skirts made out of some light material, which were long enough to
conceal their feet; tight bodices, laced or hooked in front, which
sharply accentuated the bust line; lace frills around the neck;
half-length sleeves. They were wearing eye shadow and lipstick. Both
wore a close-fitting collar and had tight bracelets on their wrists.
I know it was at this point that they freed O's hands, which were still
tied behind her back, and told her to get undressed, they were going to
bathe her and make her up. They proceeded to strip her till she hadn't a
stitch of clothing left, then put her clothes away neatly in one of the
closets. She was not allowed to bathe herself, and they did her hair as
at the hairdresser's, making her sit in one of those large chairs which
tilts back when they wash your hair and straightens back up after the
hair has been set and you're ready for the dryer. That always takes at
least an hour. Actually it took more than an hour, but she was seated on
this chair, naked, and they kept her from either crossing her legs or
bringing them together. And since the wall in front of her was covered
from floor to ceiling with a large mirror, which was unbroken by any
shelving, she could see herself, thus open, each time her gaze strayed
to the mirror.
When she was properly made up and prepared - her eyelids pencilled
lightly; her lips bright red; the tip and halo of her breasts
highlighted with pink; the edges of her nether lips rouged; her armpits
and pubis generously perfumed, and perfume also applied to the furrow
between her thighs, the furrow beneath her breasts, and to the hollows
of her hands - she was led into a room where a three-sided mirror, and
another mirror behind, enabled her to examine herself closely. She was
told to sit down on the ottoman, which was set between the mirror, and
wait. The ottoman was covered with black fur, which pricked her
slightly; the rug was black, the walls red. She was wearing red mules.
Set in one of the walls of the small bedroom was a large window, which
looked out onto a lovely, dark park. The rain had stopped, the trees
were swaying in the wind, the moon raced high among the clouds.
I have no idea how long she remained in the red bedroom, or whether she
was really alone, ad she surmised, or whether someone was watching her
through a peephole camouflaged in the wall. All I know is that when the
two women returned, one was carrying a dressmaker's tape measure and the
other a basket. With them came a man dressed in a long purple robe, full
at the shoulders. When he walked the robe flared open, from the waist
down. One could see that beneath his robe he had on some sort of tights,
which covered his legs and thighs but left the sex exposed. It was the
sex that O saw first, when he took his first step, then the whip, made
of leather thongs, which he had stuck in his belt. Then she saw that the
man was masked by a black hood - which concealed even his eyes behind a
network of black gauze - and, finally, that he was also wearing fine
black kid gloves.
Using the familiar tu form of address, he told her not to move and
ordered the women to hurry. The woman with the tape then took the
measurements of O's neck and wrists. Though on the small side, her
measurements were in no way out of the ordinary, and it was easy enough
to find the right-sized collar and bracelets, in the basket the other
woman was carrying. Both collar and bracelets were made of several
layers of leather (each layer being fairly thin, so that the total was
no more than the thickness of a finger). They had clasps, which
functioned automatically like a padlock when it closes, and they could
be opened only by means of a small key. Imbedded in the layers of
leather, directly opposite the lock, was a snugly fitting metal ring,
which hallowed one to get a grip on the bracelet, if one wanted to
attach it, for both collar and bracelets fit the arms and neck so snugly
- although not so tight as to be the least painful - that it was
impossible to slip any bond inside.
So they fastened the collar and bracelets to her neck and wrists, and
the man told her to get up. He took her place on the fur ottoman, called
her over till she was touching his knees, slipped his gloved hand
between her thighs and over her breasts, and explained to her that she
would be presented that same evening, after she had dined alone.
She did in fact dine by herself, still naked, in a sort of little cabin
where an invisible hand passed the dishes to her through a small window
in the door. Finally, when the dinner was over, the two women came for
her. In the bedroom, they fastened the two bracelet rings together
behind her back. They attached a long red cape to the ring of her collar
and draped it over her shoulders. It covered her completely, but opened
when she walked, since, with her hands behind her back, she had no way
of keeping it closed. One woman preceded her, opening the doors, and the
other followed, closing them behind her. They crossed a vestibule, two
drawing rooms, and went into the library, where four men were having
coffee. They were wearing the same long robes as the first, but no
masks. And yet O did not have time to see their faces or ascertain
whether her lover was among them (he was), for one of the men shone a
light in her eyes and blinded her. Everyone remained stock still, the
two women flanking her and the men in front, studying her. Then the
light went out; the women left. But O was blindfolded again. Then they
made her walk forward - she stumbled slightly as she went - until she
felt that she was standing in front of the fire around which the four
men were seated: she could feel the heat, and in the silence she could
hear the quiet crackling of the burning logs. She was facing the fire.
Two hands lifted her cape, two others - after having checked to see that
her bracelets were attached - descended the length of her back and
buttocks. The hands were not gloved, and one of them penetrated her in
both places at once, so abruptly that she cried out. Someone laughed.
Someone else said:
"Turn her around, so we can see the breasts and the belly."
They turned her around, and the heat of the fire was against her back. A
hand seized one of her breasts, a mouth fastened on the tip of the
other. But suddenly she lost her balance and fell backward (supported by
whose arms?), while they opened her legs and gently spread her lips.
Hair grazed the insides of her thighs. She heard them saying that they
would have to make her kneel down. This they did. She was extremely
uncomfortable in this position, especially because they forbade her to
bring her knees together and because her arms pinioned behind her forced
her to lean forward. Then they let her rock back a bit, as nuns are wont
to do.
"You've never tied her up?"
"No, never."
"And never whipped her?"
"No, never whipped her either. But as a matter of fact..."
It was her lover speaking.
"As a matter of fact," the other voice went on, "if you do tie her up
from time to time, or whip her just a little, and she begins to like it,
that's no good either. You have to get past the pleasure stage, until
you reach the stage of tears."
Then they made O get up and were on the verge of untying her, probably
in order to attach her to some pole or wall, when someone protested that
he wanted to take her first, right there on the spot. So they made her
kneel down again, this time with her bust on an ottoman, her hands still
tied behind her, with her hips higher than her torso. Then one of the
men, holding her with both his hands on her hips, plunged into her
belly. He yielded to a second. The third wanted to force his way into
the narrower passage and, driving hard, made her scream. When he let her
go, sobbing and befouled by tears beneath her blindfold, she slipped to
the floor, only to feel someone's knees against her face, and she
realized that her mouth was not to be spared. Finally they let her go, a
captive clothed in tawdry finery, lying on her back in front of the
fire. She could hear glasses being filled and the sound of the men
drinking, and the scraping of chair. They put some more wood on the
fire. All of a sudden they removed her blindfold. The large room, the
walls of which were lined with bookcases, was dimly lit by a single wall
lamp and by the light of the fire, which was beginning to burn more
brightly. Two of the men were standing and smoking. Another was seated,
a riding crop on his knees, and the one leaning over her fondling her
breast was her lover. All four of them had taken her, and she had not
been able to distinguish him from the others.
They explained to her that this was how it would always be, as long as
she was in the château, that she would see the faces of those who
violated or tormented her, but never at night, and she would never know
which ones had been responsible for the worst. The same would be true
when she was whipped, except that they wanted her to see herself being
whipped, and so this once she would not be blindfolded. They, on the
other hand, would don their masks, and she would no longer be able to
tell them apart.
Her lover had helped her to her feet, still wrapped in her red cape,
made her sit down on the arm of an easy chair near the fire, so that she
could hear what they had to tell her and see what they wanted to show
her. Her hands were still behind her back. They showed her the riding
crop, which was long, black, and delicate, made of thin bamboo encased
in leather, the kind one sees in the windows of better riding equipment
shops; the leather whip, which the first man she had seen had been
carrying in his belt, was long and consisted of six lashes knotted at
the end. There was a third whip of fairly thin cords, each with several
knots at the end: the cords were quite stiff, as though they had been
soaked in water, which in fact they had, as O discovered, for they
caressed her belly with them and nudged open her thighs, so that she
could feel how stiff and damp the cords were against the tender, inner
skin. Then there were the keys and steel chains on the console table.
Along one entire wall of the library, halfway between floor and ceiling,
ran a gallery which was supported by two columns. A hook was imbedded in
one of them, just high enough for a man standing on tiptoe, with his
arms stretched above his head, to reach. They told O, supporting her
shoulders, and the other in the furrow of her loins, which burned so she
could hardly bear it, they told her that her hands would be untied, but
merely so that they could be fastened anew, a short while later, to the
pole, using these same bracelets and one of the steel chains. They said
that, with the exception of her hands, which would be held just above
her head, she would thus be able to move and see the blows coming: that
in principle she would be whipped only on the thighs and buttocks, in
other words between her waist and knees, in the same region which had
been prepared in the car that had brought her here, when she had been
made to sit naked on the seat; but that in all likelihood one of the
four men present would want to mark her thighs with the riding crop,
which makes lovely long deep welts which last a long time. She would not
have to endure all this at once; there would be ample time for her to
scream, to struggle, and to cry. They would grant her some respite, but
as soon as she had caught her breath they would start in again, judging
the results not from her screams or tears but from the size and color of
the welts they had raised. They remarked to her that this method of
judging the effectiveness of the whip - besides being equitable - also
made it pointless for the victims to exaggerate their suffering in an
effort to arouse pity, and thus enabled them to resort to the same
measures beyond the château walls, outdoors in the park - as was often
done - or in any ordinary apartment or hotel room, assuming a gag was
used (such as the one they produced and showed her there on the spot),
for the gag stifled all screams and eliminates all but the most violent
moans, while allowing tears to flow without restraint.
There was no question of using it that night. On the contrary, they
wanted to hear her scream; and the sooner the better. The pride she
mustered to resist and remain silent did not long endure: they even
heard her beg them to untie her, to stop for a second, just for a
second. So frantically did she writhe, trying to escape the bite of the
leashes, that she turned almost completely around, on the near side of
the pole, for the chain which held her was long and although quite
solid, was fairly slack. As a result, her belly and the front of her
thighs were almost as marked as her backside. They made up their minds,
after in fact having stopped for a moment, to begin again only after a
rope had been attached first to her waist, then to the pole. Since they
tied her tightly, to keep her waist snug to the pole, her torso was
forced slightly to one side, and this in turn caused her buttocks to
protrude in the opposite direction. >From then on the blows landed on
their target, unless aimed deliberately elsewhere. Given the way her
lover had handed her over, had delivered her into this situation, O
might have assumed that to beg him for mercy would have been the surest
method for making him redouble his cruelty, so great was his pleasure in
extracting, or having the others extract, from her this unquestionable
proof of his power. And indeed he was the first to point out that the
leather whip, the first they had used on her, left almost no marks (in
contrast to the whip made of water-soaked cords, which marked almost
upon contact, and the riding crop, which raised immediate welts), and
thus allowed them to prolong the agony and follow their fancies in
starting and stopping. He asked them to use only the whip.
Meanwhile, the man who liked women only for what they had in common with
men, seduced by the available behind which was straining at the bonds
knotted just below the waist, a behind made all the more enticing by its
efforts to dodge the blows, called for an intermission in order to take
advantage of it. He spread the two parts, which burned beneath his
hands, and penetrated - not without some difficulty - remarking as he
did that the passage would have to be rendered more easily accessible.
They all agreed that this could, and would, be done.
When they untied the young woman, she staggered and almost fainted,
draped in her red cape. Before returning her to the cell she was to
occupy, they sat her down in an armchair near the fire and outlined for
her the rules and regulations she was to follow during her stay in the
château and later in her daily life after she had left it (which did not
mean regaining her freedom, however). Then they rang. The two young
women who had first received her came in, bearing the clothes she was to
wear during her stay and tokens by which those who had been hosts at the
château before her arrival and those who would be after she had left,
might recognize her. Her outfit was similar to theirs: a long dress with
a full skirt, worn over a sturdy whalebone bodice gathered tightly at
the waist, and over a stiffly starched linen petticoat. The low-cut neck
scarcely concealed the breasts which, raised by the constricting bodice,
were only lightly veiled by the network of lace. The petticoat was
white, as was the lace, and the dress and bodice were a sea-green satin.
When O was dressed and resettled in her chair beside the fire, her
pallor accentuated by the color of the dress, the two young women, who
had not uttered a word, prepared to leave. One of the four friends
seized one of them as she passed, made a sign for the other to wait, and
brought the girl he had stopped back toward O. He turned her around and,
holding her by the waist with one hand, lifted her skirt with the other,
in order to demonstrate to O, he said, the practical advantages of the
costume and show how well designed it was. He added that all one needed
to keep the skirts raised was a simple belt, which made everything that
lay beneath readily available. In fact, they often had the girls go
about in the château or the park either like this, or with their skirts
tucked up in front, waist high. They had the young woman show O how she
would have to keep her skirt: rolled up several turns (like a lock of
hair rolled in a curler) and secured tightly by a belt, either directly
in front, to expose the belly, or in the middle of the back, to leave
the buttocks free. In either case, skirt and petticoat fell diagonally
away in large, cascading folds of intermingled material. Like O, the
young woman's backside bore fresh welt from the riding crop. She left
the room.
Here is the speech they then delivered to O:
"You are here to serve your masters. During the day, you will perform
whatever domestic duties are assigned to you, such as sweeping, putting
back the books, arranging flowers, or waiting on table. Nothing more
difficult than that. But at the first word or sign from anyone you will
drop whatever you are doing and ready yourself for what is really your
one and only duty: to lend yourself. Your hands are not your own, nor
are your breasts, nor, most especially, any of your bodily orifices,
which we may explore or penetrate at will. You will remember at all
times - or as constantly as possible - that you have lost all right to
privacy or concealment, and as a reminder of this fact, in our presence
you will never close your lips completely, or cross your legs, or press
your knees together (you may recall you were forbidden to do this the
minute you arrived). This will serve as a constant reminder, to you as
well as to use, that your mouth, your belly, and your backside are open
to us. You will never touch your breasts in our presence: the bodice
raises them toward us, that they may be ours. During the day you will
therefore be dressed, and if anyone should order you to lift your skirt,
you will lift it; if anyone desires to use you in any manner whatsoever,
he will use you, unmasked, but with this one reservation: the whip. The
whip will be used only between dusk and dawn. But besides the whipping
you receive from whoever may want to whip you, you will also be flogged
in the evening, as punishment for any infractions of the rules committed
during the day: for having been slow to oblige, for having raised your
eyes and looked at the person addressing you or taking you - you must
never look any of us in the face. If the costume we wear in the evening
- the one I am now wearing - leaves our sex exposed, it is not for the
sake of convenience, for it would be just as convenient the other way,
but for the sake of insolence, so that your eyes will be directed there
upon it and nowhere else, so that you may learn that there resides your
master, for whom, above all else, your lips are intended. During the
day, when we are dressed in normal attire and you are clothed as you are
now, the same rules will apply, except that when requested you will open
your clothes, and then close them again when we have finished with you.
Another thing: at night you will have only your lips with which to honor
us - and your wide-spread thighs - for your hands will be tied behind
your back and you will be naked, as you were a short while ago. You will
be blindfolded only to be maltreated and, now that you have seen how you
are whipped, to be flogged. And yes, by the way: while it is perfectly
all right for you to grow accustomed to being whipped - since you are
going to be every day throughout your stay - this is less for our
pleasure than for your enlightenment. How true this is may be shown by
the fact that on those nights when no one desires you, you will wait
until the valet whose job it is comes to your solitary cell and
administers what you are due to receive but we are not in the mood to
mete out. Actually, both this flogging and the chain - which when
attached to the ring of your collar keeps you more or less closely
confined to your bed several hours a day - are intended less to make you
suffer, scream, or shed tears than to make you feel, through this
suffering, that you are not free but fettered, and to teach you that you
are totally dedicated to something outside yourself. When you leave
here, you will be wearing on your third finger an iron ring, which will
identify you. Bu then you will have learned to obey those who wear the
same insignia, and when they see it they will know that beneath your
skirt you are constantly naked, however comely or commonplace your
clothes may be, and that this nakedness is for them. Should anyone find
you in the least intractable, he will return you here. Now you will be
shown to your cell."
While there were talking to O, the two women who had come to dress her
had been standing on either side of the stake where she had been
whipped, without touching it, as though it terrified them, or as though
they had been forbidden to touch it (which was more likely); when the
man had finished, they came over to O, who realized that she was
supposed to get up and follow them. She therefore got up, gathering her
skirts in her arms to keep from tripping, for she was not used to long
dresses and did not feel steady on the mules with thick soles and very
high heels which only a thick satin strip, of the same green as her
dress, kept from slipping off her feet. As she bent down she turned her
head. The women were waiting, the men were no longer looking at her. Her
lover, seated on the floor leaning against the ottoman over which she
had been thrown at the beginning of the evening, with his knees raised
and his elbows on his knees, was toying with the leather whip. As she
took her first step to join the women, her skirt grazed him. He raised
his head and smiled, calling her by her name, and he too stood up.
Softly her caressed her hair, smoothed her eyebrows with the tip of his
finger, and softly kissed her on the lips. In a loud voice, he told her
that he loved her. O, trembling, was terrified to notice that she
answered "I love you," and that it was true. He pulled her against him
and said: "Darling, sweetheart," kissed her on the neck and the curve of
the cheek; she had let her head fall on his shoulder, which was covered
by the purple robe. Very softly this time he repeated to her that he
loved her, and very softly added: "You're going to kneel down, cress me,
and kiss me," and he pushed her away, signaling to the women to move
aside so he could lean back against the console. He was tall, but the
table was not very high and his long legs, sheathed in the same purple
as his robe, were bent. The open rope stiffened from beneath like
drapes, and the top of the console table slightly raised his heavy sex
and the light fleece above it. The three men approached. O knelt down on
the rug, her green dress in a corolla around her. Her bodice squeezed
her; her breasts whose nipples were visible, were at the level of her
lover's knees. "A little more light," said one of the men. As they were
adjusting the lamp so that the beam of light would fall directly on his
sex and on his mistress's face, which was almost touching it, and on her
hands which were caressing him from below, René suddenly ordered: "Say
it again: 'I love you.'" O repeated "I love you," with such delight that
her lips hardly dared brush the tip of his sex, which was still
protected by its sheath of soft flesh. The three men, who were smoking,
commented on her gestures, on the movement of her mouth closed and
locked on the sex she had seized, as it worked its way up and down, on
the way tears streamed down her ravaged face each time the swollen
member struck the back of her throat and made her gag, depressing her
tongue and causing her to feel nauseous. It was this same mouth which,
half gagging on the hardened flesh which filled it, murmured again: "I
love you." The two women had taken up positions to the right and left of
René who had one arm around each of their shoulders. O could hear the
comments made by those present, , but through their words she strained
to hear her lover's moans, caressing him carefully, slowly , and with
infinite respect, the way she knew pleased him. O felt that her mouth
was beautiful, since her lover condescended to thrust himself into it,
since he deigned publicly to offer caresses to it, since, finally, he
deigned to discharge in it. She received as a god is received, she heard
him cry out, heard the others laugh, and when she had received it she
fell, her face against the floor. The two women picked her up, and this
time they led her away.
The mules banged on the red tiles of the hallway, where doors succeeded
doors, discreet and clean, with tiny locks, like the doors of the rooms
in big hotels. O was working up the courage to ask whether each of these
rooms was occupied, and by whom, when one of her companions, whose voice
she had not yet heard said to her:
"You're in the red wing, and your valet's name is Pierre."
"What valet?" said O, struck by the gentleness of the voice. "And what's
your name?"
"Andrée."
"Mine is Jeanne," said the second.
"The valet is the one who has the keys," the first one went on, "the one
who will chain and unchain you, who will whip you when you are to be
punished and when the others have no time for you."
"I was in the red wing last year," Jeanne said. "Pierre was there
already. He often came in at night. The valets have the keys and the
right to use any of us in the rooms of their section."
O was about to ask what kind of person this Pierre was, but she did not
have time to. As they turned a corner of the hallway, they made her halt
before a door similar in all respects to the others: on a bench between
this and the following door she noticed a sort of thick-set, ruddy
peasant, whose head was practically clean shaved, with small black eyes
set deep in his skull and rolls of flesh on his neck. He was dressed
like the valet in some operetta: a shirt whose lace frills peeked out
from beneath his black vest, which itself was covered by a red jacket of
the kind called a spencer. He had black breeches, white stockings, and
patent-leather pumps. He too was carrying a leather-thonged whip in his
belt. His hands were covered with red hair. He took a master key from
his vest pocket, ushered the three women in, and said:
"I'm locking the door. Ring when you've finished."
The cell was quite small, and actually consisted of two rooms. With the
hall door closed, they found themselves in an antechamber which opened
into the cell proper; in this same wall, inside the room itself, was
another door which opened into the bathroom. Opposite the doors there
was the window. Against the left wall, between the doors and the window,
stood the head of a large square bed, which was very low and covered
with furs. There was no other furniture, no mirror. The walls were
bright red, and the rug black. Andrée pointed out to O that the bed was
less a bed than a mattressed platform covered with a black, longhaired
imitation fur material. The pillow, hard and flat like the mattress, was
of the same reversible material. The only object on any of the walls was
a thick, gleaming steel ring which was set at about the same height
above the bed as the hook in the stake had been above the floor of the
library; from it descended a long steel chain directly onto the bed, its
links forming a little pile, the other end being attached at arm's
length to a pad-locked hook, like a drapery pulled back and held in
place by a curtain loop.
"We have to give you your bath," Jeanne said. "I'll unfasten your
dress."
The only peculiar features of the bathroom were the Turkish-type toilet,
located in the corner nearest the door, and the fact that every inch of
wall space was covered with mirrors. Jeanne and Andrée did not allow O
to go in until she was naked. They put her dress away in the closet next
to the washbasin, where her mules and red cape already were, and
remained with her, so that when she had to squat down over the porcelain
pedestal she found herself surrounded by a whole host of reflections, as
exposed as in the library when unknown hands had taken her by force.
"Wait until it's Pierre," said Jeanne, "and you'll see."
"Why Pierre?"
"When he comes to chain you, he may make you squat."
O felt herself turn pale. "But why?" she said.
"Because you have to," Jeanne replied. "But you're lucky."
"Why lucky?"
"Was it your lover who brought you here?"
"Yes," O said.
"They'll be a lot harder with you."
"I don't understand...."
"You will very soon. I'm ringing for Pierre. We'll come and get you
tomorrow morning."
Andrée smiled as she left and Jeanne, before following her, caressed the
tips of O's breasts. O, completely taken aback, remained standing at the
foot of the bed. With the exception of the collar and leather bracelets,
which the water had stiffened when she had bathed and were tighter than
before, O was naked.
"Behold the lovely lady," said the valet as he entered. And he seized
both her hands. He slipped one of the bracelet hooks into the other, so
that her wrists were tightly joined, then clipped both these hooks to
the ring of the necklace. Thus her hands were joined as in an attitude
of prayer, at the level of her neck. All that remained to be done was to
chain her to the wall with the chain that was lying on the bed, and was
attached to the ring above. He unfastened the hook by which the other
end was attached and pulled on it in order to shorten it. O was forced
to move to the head of the bed, where he made her lie down. The chain
clicked in the ring, and was so tight that the young woman could do no
more than move from one side of the bed to the other or stand up on
either side of the headboard. Since the chain tended to shorten the
collar, that is, pull it backward, and her hands tended to pull it
forward, and equilibrium was established, with her joined hands lying on
her left shoulder and her head bending in that direction as well. The
valet pulled the black cover up over O, but not before he had lifted her
legs for a moment and pushed them back toward her chest, to examine the
cleft between her thighs. He did not touch her further, did not say a
word, turned out the light, which was a bracket lamp on the wall between
the two doors, and went out.
Lying on her left side, alone in the darkness and silence, hot beneath
her two layers of fur, of necessity motionless, O tried to figure out
why there was so much sweetness mingled with the terror in her, or why
her terror seemed itself so sweet. She realized that one of the things
that most distressed her was the fact that she had been deprived of the
use of her hands; not that her hands could have defended her (and did
she really want to defend herself?), but had they been free they would
at least have made the gesture, have made an attempt to repel the hands
which seized her, the flesh which pierced her, to protect her loins from
the whip. O's hands had been taken away from her; her body beneath the
fur was inaccessible to her. How strange it was not to be able to touch
one's own knees, or the hollow of one's own belly. The lips between her
legs, her burning lips were forbidden her, and perhaps they were burning
because she knew they were open to the first comer: to the valet Pierre,
if he cared to enter. She was surprised that the whipping she had
received had left her so untroubled, so calm, whereas the thought that
she would probably never know which of the four men had twice taken her
from behind, and whether it was the same man both times, and whether it
had been her lover, quite distressed her. She turned over slightly on
her stomach, recalling that her lover loved the furrow between her
buttocks which, except for this evening (if it had been he), he had
never penetrated. She hoped it had been he; would she ask him? Ah,
never! Again she saw the hand which in the car had taken her garter belt
and panties, and had stretched the garters so that she could roll her
stockings down to above her knees. The memory was so vivid that she
forgot her hands were bound and made the chain grate. And why, if she
took the memory of the torture she had gone through so lightly, why did
the very idea , the very word or sight of a whip make her heart beat
wildly and her eyes close with terror? She did not stop to consider
whether it was only terror; she was overwhelmed with panic: they would
pull on her chain and haul her to her feet on the bed, and they would
whip her, with her belly glued to the wall they would whip her, whip
her, the word kept turning in her head. Pierre would whip her, Jeanne
had said he would. You're lucky, Jeanne had repeated, they'll be a lot
harder on you. What had she meant by that? She no longer felt anything
but the collar, the bracelets, and the chain; her body was drifting
away. She fell asleep.
In the wee hours of the night, just before dawn when it is darkest and
coldest, Pierre reappeared. He turned on the light in the bathroom,
leaving the door open so that a square of light fell on the middle of
the bed, on the spot where O's slender body was curled, making a small
mound beneath the cover, which silently he pulled back. Since O was
sleeping on her left side, her face to the window and her legs slightly
drawn up, the view she offered him was that of her white flanks, which
seemed even whiter against the black fur. He took the pillow from
beneath her head and said politely:
"Would you lease stand up," and when she was on her knees, a position
she managed by pulling herself up with the chain, he gave her a hand,
taking her by the elbows so that she could stand up straight with her
face to the wall. The square of light on the bed, which was faint, since
the bed was black, illuminated her body, but not his gestures. She
guessed, but could not see, that he was undoing the chain to rehook it
to another link, so that it would remain taut, and she could feel it
growing tighter. Her feet, which were bare, were solidly planted on the
bed. Nor was she able to see that he had in his belt not the leather
whip but the black riding crop similar to the one they had hit her with
while she was tied to the stake, but they had only used it twice on her
and had not hit her hard. She felt Pierre's left hand on her waist, the
Mattress gave a little as, to steady himself, he put his right foot on
it. At the same time as she heard a whistling noise in the
semi-darkness, O felt a terrible burning across her back, and she
screamed. Pierre flogged her with all his might. He did not wait for her
screams to subside, but struck her again four times, being careful each
time to lash her above or below the preceding spot, so that the traces
would be all the clearer. Even after he had stopped she went on
screaming, and the tears streamed down into her open mouth.
"Please be good enough to turn around," he said, and since she, who was
completely distracted, failed to obey, he took her by hips without
letting go of his riding crop, the handle of which brushed against her
waist. When she was facing him, he moved back slightly and lowered his
crop on the front of her thighs as hard as he could. The whole thing had
lasted five minutes. When he had left, after having turned out the light
and closed the bathroom door, O was left moaning in the darkness,
swaying back and forth along the wall at the end of her chain. She tried
to stop moaning and to immobilize herself against the wall, whose
gleaming percale was cool on her tortured flesh, as day slowly began to
break. The tall window, toward which she was turned, for she was leaning
on one hip, was facing the east. It extended from floor to ceiling and
except for the drapes - of the same red material as that on the wall -
which graced it on either side and split into stiff folds below the
curtain loops which held it, had not curtains. O watched the slow birth
of pale dawn, trailing its mist among the clusters of asters outside at
the foot of her window, until finally a poplar tree appeared. The yellow
leaves from time to time fell in swirls, although there was no wind. In
front of the window, beyond the bed of purple asters, there was a lawn,
at the end of which was a pathway. It was broad daylight by now, and O
had not moved for a long time. A gardener appeared on the path, pushing
a wheelbarrow. The iron wheel could be heard squeaking over the gravel.
If he had come over to rake the leaves that had fallen in among the
asters, the window was so tall and the room so small and bright that he
would have seen O chained and naked and the marks of the riding crop on
her thighs. The cuts were swollen, and had formed narrow swellings much
darker in color than the red of the walls. Where was her lover sleeping,
the way he loved to sleep on quiet mornings? In what room, in what bed?
Was he aware of the pain, the tortures to which he had delivered her?
Was he the one who had decided what they would be? O recalled the
prisoners she had seen in engravings and in history books, who also had
been chained and whipped many years ago, centuries ago, and had died.
She did not wish to die, but if torture was the price she had to pay to
keep her lover's love, then she only hoped he was pleased that she had
endured it. All soft and silent she waited, waited for them to bring her
back to him.
None of the women had the keys to any locks, neither the locks to the
doors nor the chains, the collars or bracelets, but every man carried a
ring of three sets of keys, each of which, in the various categories,
opened all the doors or all the padlocks, or all the collars. The valets
had them too. But in the morning the valets who had been on the night
shift were sleeping, and it was one of the masters or another valet who
came to open the locks. The man who came into O's cell was dressed in a
leather jacket and was wearing riding breeches and boots. She did not
recognize him. First he unlocked the chain on the wall, and O was able
to lie down on the bed. Before he unlocked her wrists, he ran his hands
between her thighs, the way the first man with mask and gloves, whom she
had seen in the small red drawing room, had done. It may have been the
same one. His face was bony and fleshless, with that piercing look one
associates with the portraits of the Huguenots, and his hair was gray. O
met his gaze for what seemed to be an endless time and, suddenly
freezing, she remembered it was forbidden to look at the masters above
the belt. She closed her eyes, but it was too late, and she heard him
laugh and say, as he finally freed her hands:
"There will be a punishment for that after dinner."
He said something to Jeanne and Andrée who had come in with him and were
standing waiting on either side of the bed, after which he let. Andrée
picked up the pillow, which was on the floor, and the blanket that
Pierre had turned down toward the foot of the bed when he had come to
whip O, while Jeanne wheeled, toward the head of the bed, a serving
table which had been brought into the hallway and on which were coffee,
milk, sugar, bread, croissants, and butter.
"Hurry up and eat," said Andrée. "It's nine o'clock. Afterward you can
sleep till noon, and when you hear the bell it will be time to get ready
for lunch. You'll bathe and fix your hair. I'll come to make you up and
lace up your bodice."
"You won't be on duty till afternoon," Jeanne said. "In the library:
you'll serve the coffee and liqueur and tend the fire."
"And what about you?" O said.
"We're only supposed to take care of you during the first twenty-four
hours of your stay. After that you're on your own, and will have
dealings only with the men. We won't be able to talk to you, and you
won't be able to talk to us either.":
"Don't go," O said. "Stay a while longer and tell me..." But she did not
have time to finish her sentence. The door opened; it was her lover, and
he was not alone. It was her lover, dressed the way he used to when he
had just gotten out of bed and lighted the first cigarette of the day;
in striped pajamas and a blue dressing gown, the wool robe with the
padded silk lapels which they had picked out together a year before. And
his slippers were worn, she would have to buy him another pair. The two
women disappeared with no other sound except the rustling of silk as
they lifted their skirts (all the skirts were a trifle long and trailed
on the ground) - on the carpet the mules could not be heard.
O, who was holding a cup of coffee in her left hand and a croissant in
the other, was seated cross-legged, or rather half-cross-legged, on the
edge of the bed, one of her legs dangling and the other tucked up under
her. She did not move, but her cup suddenly began to shake in her hand,
and she dropped the croissant.
"Pick it up," René said. They were his first words.
She put the cup down on the table, picked up the partly eaten croissant,
and put it beside the cup. A fat croissant crumb still lay on the rug,
beside her bare foot. This time René bent down and picked it up. Then he
sat down near O, pulled her back down onto the bed and kissed her. She
asked him if he loved her. He answered: "Yes, I love you!" then got to
his feet and made her stand up too, softly running the cool palms of his
hands, then his lips, over the welts.
Since he had come in with her lover, O did not know whether or not she
could look at the man who had entered with him and who, for the moment,
had his back to them and was smoking a cigarette near the door. What
followed was not of a nature to reassure her.
"Come over here so we can see you," her lover said, and having guided
her to the foot of the bed, he pointed out to his companion that he had
been right, and he thanked him, adding that it would only be fair for
him to take O first if he so desired.
The unknown man, whom she still did not dare to look at, then asked her,
after having run his hand over her breasts and down her buttocks, to
spread her legs.
"Do as he says," said René, who was holding her up. He too was standing,
and her back was against him. With his right hand he was caressing one
breast, and his other was on her shoulder. The unknown man had sat down
on the edge of the bed, he had seized and slowly parted, drawing the
fleece, the lips which protected the entrance itself. René pushed her
forward, as soon as he realized what was wanted from her, so that she
would be more accessible, and his right arm slipped around her waist,
giving him a better grip.
This caress, to which she never submitted without a struggled and which
always filled her with shame, and from which she escaped as quickly as
she could, so quickly in fact that she had scarcely had a chance to be
touched, this caress which seemed a sacrilege to her, for she deemed it
sacrilege for her lover to be on his knees, feeling that she should be
on hers, she suddenly felt that she would not escape from it now, and
she saw herself doomed. For she moaned when the alien lips, which were
pressing upon the mound of flesh whence the inner corolla emanates,
suddenly inflamed her, left her to allow the hot tip of the tongue to
inflame her even more; she moaned even more when the lips began again:
she felt the hidden point harden and rise, that point caught in a long,
sucking bite between teeth and lips, which did not let go, a long
soothing bite which made her gasp for breath. She lots her footing and
found herself again lying on the bed, with René's mouth on her mouth;
his two hands were pinning her shoulders to the bed, while two other
hands beneath her knees were raising and opening her legs. Her own
hands, which were beneath her back (for when René had propelled her
toward the unknown man he had bound her wrists together by clipping the
wristbands together), were grazed by the sex of the man who was
caressing himself in the furrow of her buttocks before rising to strike
hard into the depths of her belly. At the first stroke she cried out, as
though it had been the lash of a whip, then again at each new stroke,
and her lover bit her mouth. The man tore himself abruptly away from her
and fell back on the floor, as though struck by lightning, and he too
gave a cry.
René freed O's hands, lifted her up, and lay her down beneath the
blanket on the bed. The man got up, René escorted him to the door. In a
flash, O saw herself released, reduced to nothing, accursed. She had
moaned beneath the lips of the stranger as never her lover had made her
moan, cried out under the impact of a stranger's member as never her
lover had made her cry out. She felt debased and guilty. She could not
blame him if he were to leave her. But no, the door was closing again,
he was staying with her, he was coming back, lying down beside her
beneath the cover, he was slipping into her moist, hot belly and, still
holding her in this embrace, he said to her:
"I love you. When I'll also have given you to the valets, I'll come in
one night and have you flogged till you bleed."
The sun had broken through the mist and flooded the room. But only the
midday bell woke them up.
O was at a loss what to do.
Her lover was there, as close, as tenderly relaxed and surrendered as he
was in the bed in that low-ceilinged room to which, almost every night
since they had begun living together, he came to sleep with her. It was
a big, mahogany, English-style four-0poster bed, without the awning, and
the posters at the head were taller than those at the foot. He always
slept on her left, and whenever he awoke, even were it in the middle of
the night, his hands inevitably reached down for her legs. This is why
she never wore anything but a nightgown or, if she had on pajamas, never
put on the bottoms. He did so now; she took that hand and kissed it,
without ever daring to ask him for anything. But he spoke. Holding her
by the collar, with two fingers slipped in between the neck and collar,
he told her it was his intention that henceforth she should be shared by
him and those of his choosing, and by those whom he did not know who
were connected to the society of the château, shared as she had been the
previous evening. That she was dependent on him, and on him alone, even
though she might receive orders from persons other than himself, whether
he was present or absent, for as a matter of principle he was
participating in whatever might be demanded of or inflicted on her, and
that it was he who possessed and enjoyed her through those into whose
hands she had been given, by the simple fact that he had given her to
them. She must greet them and submit to them with the same respect with
which she greeted him, as though they were so many reflections of him.
Thus he would possess her as a god possesses his creatures, whom he lays
hold of in the guise of a monster or a bird, of an invisible spirit or a
state of ecstasy. He did not wish to leave her. The more he surrendered
her, the more he would hold her dear. The fact that he gave her was to
him a proof, and ought to be one for her as well that she belonged to
him: one can only give what belongs to you. He gave her only to reclaim
her immediately, to reclaim her enriched in his eyes, like some common
object which had been used for some divine purpose and has thus been
consecrated. For a long time he had wanted to prostitute her, and he was
delighted to feel that the pleasure he was deriving was even greater
than he had hoped, and that it bound him to her all the more, as it
bound her to him, all the more so because, through it, she would be more
humiliated and ravaged. Since she loved him, she could not help loving
whatever derived from him. O listened and trembled with happiness,
because he loved her, all acquiescent she trembled. He doubtless guessed
it, for he went on:
"It's because it's easy for you to consent that I want from you what it
will be impossible for you to consent to, even if you agree ahead of
time, even if you say yes now and imagine yourself capable of
submitting. You won't be able not to revolt. Your submission will be
obtained in spite of you, not only for the inimitable pleasure that I
and others will derive from it, but also that you will be made aware of
what has been done to you."
O was on the verge of saying that she was his slave and that she bore
her bonds cheerfully. He stopped her.
"Yesterday you were told that as long as you are in the château you are
not to look a man in the face of speak to him. The same applies to me as
well: with me you shall remain silent and obey. I love you. Now get up.
From now on the only times that you will open your mouth here in the
presence of a man will be to cry out or to caress."
So O got up. René remained lying on the bed. She bathed and arranged her
hair. The contact of her bruised loins with the tepid water made her
shiver, and she had to sponge herself without rubbing to keep from
reviving the burning pain. She made up her mouth but not her eyes,
powdered herself and, still naked but with lowered eyes, came back into
the room.
René was looking at Jeanne, who had come in and was standing at the head
of the bed, she too with her head bowed, unspeaking. He told her to
dress O. Jeanne took the bodice of green satin, the white petticoat, the
dress, the green mules and having hooked up O's bodice in front, began
to lace it up tight in the back. The bodice was long and stiff, stoutly
whaleboned as during the period when wasp waists were in style, with
gussets to support the breasts. The more the bodice was tightened, the
more the breasts were lifted, supported as they were by the gussets, and
the nipples displayed more prominently. At the same time, the
constriction of the waist caused her stomach to protrude and her
backside to arch out sharply. The strange thing was that this armor was
very comfortable and to a certain extent restful. It made you stand up
very straight, but it made you realize - why, it was hard to tell unless
it was by contract - the freedom, or rather the unavailability, of that
part of the body left unrestricted. The full skirt and the
trapezoid-shaped neckline running from the base of the neck to the tips
of the breasts and across the full length of the bosom seemed to the
girl to be less a protective outfit than an instrument designed to
provoke or present. When Jeanne had tied the laces in a double knot, O
took her dress from the bed. It was a one-piece dress, with the
petticoat attached to the skirt like a detachable lining, and the
bodice, cross-laced in front and tied in the back, was thus able to
follow more or less the delicate contours of her bosom, depending on how
tightly the bodice was laced. Jeanne had laced it very tight, and
through the open door O was able to see herself reflected in the mirror,
slim and lost in the green satin which billowed at her hips, as a hoop
skirt would have done. The two women were standing side by side. Jeanne
reached out to smooth a wrinkle in the green dress, and her breasts
stirred in the lace fringes of her bodice, breasts whose tips were long
and the halos brown. Her dress was of yellow faille.
René, who had come over to the two women, said to O: "Watch." And to
Jeanne: "Lift your dress." With both hands she raised the crackling silk
and the crinoline which lined it, revealing as she did a golden belly,
gleaming thighs and knees, and a tight black triangle. René put his hand
on it and slowly explored, and with the other excited the nipple of one
breast.
"Merely so you can see," he said to O.
O saw. She saw his ironic but attentive face, his eyes carefully
watching Jeanne's half-open mouth and her neck, which was thrown back,
tightly circled by the leather collar. What pleasure was she giving him,
yes she, that this girl or any other could not?
"That hadn't occurred to you?" he added.
No, that had not occurred to her. She had collapsed against the wall,
between the two doors, her arms hanging limp. There was no longer any
need to tell her to keep quiet. How could she have spoken? Perhaps he
was touched by her despair. He left Jeanne and took her in his arms,
calling her his love and his life, saying over and over again that he
loved her. The hand he was caressing her neck with was moist with the
odor of Jeanne. And so? The despair that had overwhelmed her slowly
ebbed: he loved her, ah he loved her. He was free to enjoy himself with
Jeanne, or with others, he loved her. "I love you," he had whispered to
her ear, "I love you," so softly it was scarcely audible. "I love you."
He did not leave until he saw that her eyes were clear and her
expression calm, contented.
Jeanne took O by the hand and let her out into the hallway. Their mules
again made a resounding noise on the tile floor, and again they found a
valet seated on a bench between the doors. He was dressed like Pierre,
but it was not Pierre. This one was tall, dry, and had dark hair. He
preceded them and showed them into an antechamber where, before a
wrought-iron door that stood between two tall green drapes, two other
valets were waiting, some white dogs with russet spots lying at their
feet.
"That's the enclosure," Jeanne murmured. But the valet who was walking
in front of them heard her and turned around. O was amazed to see Jeanne
turn deathly pale and let go of her hand, let go of her dress which she
was holding lightly with her other hand, and sink to her knees on the
black tile floor - for the antechamber was tiled in black marble. The
two valets near the gate burst out laughing. One of them came over to O
and politely invited her to follow him, opened a door opposite the one
she had just entered, and stood aside. She heard laughter and the sound
of footsteps, then the door closed behind her. She never - no, never -
learned what had happened, whether Jeanne had been punished for having
spoken, and if so what the punishment had been, or whether she had
simply yielded to a caprice on the part of the valet, or whether in
throwing herself on her knees she had been obeying some rule or trying
to move the valet to pity, and whether she had succeeded. During her
initial stay in the château, which lasted two weeks, she only noted
that, although the rule of silence was absolute, it was rare that they
did not try and break it while they were alone with the valets, either
being taken to or from some place in the château, or during meals,
especially during the day. It was as though clothing gave them a feeling
of assurance which nakedness and nocturnal chains, and the master's
presence, destroyed. She also noticed that, whereas the slightest
gestures which might have been construed as an advance toward one of the
masters seemed quite naturally inconceivable, the same was not true for
the valets. They never gave orders, although the courtesy of their
requests was as implacable as an order. They had apparently been
enjoined to punish to the letter infractions of the rules which occurred
in their presence, and to punish them on the spot. Thus, on three
occasions, O saw girls who were caught talking thrown to the floor and
whipped - once in the hallway leading to the red wing, and twice again
in the fectory they had just entered. So it was possible to be whipped
in broad daylight, despite what they had told her the first evening, as
though what happened with the valets did not count and was left to their
discretion.
Daylight made their outfits look strange and menacing. Some valets wore
black stockings and, in place of the red jacket and white ruffled shirt,
a soft wide-sleeved shirt of red silk, gathered at the neck and with the
sleeves also gathered at the wrists. It was one of these valets who, on
the eight day at noon, his whip already in his hand, made a buxom blonde
named Madeleine, who was seated not far from O, get up off her stool.
Madeleine, whose bosom was all milk and roses, had smiled at him and
spoken a few words so quickly that O had missed them. Before he had time
to touch her she was on her knees, her hand, so white against the black
silk, lightly stroking the still dormant sex, which she took out and
brought to her half-opened mouth. That time she was not whipped. And
since he was then the only monitor in the refectory, and since he closed
his eyes as he accepted the caress, the other girls began talking. So it
was possible to bribe the valets. But what was the use? If there was one
rule to which O had trouble submitting, and indeed never really
submitted to completely, it was the rule forbidding them to look men in
the face - considering that the rule applied to the valets as well, O
felt herself in constant danger, so compelling was her curiosity about
faces, and she was in fact whipped by both the valets, not, in truth,
each time they noticed her doing (for they took some liberties with
instructions, and perhaps cared enough about the fascination they
exercised not to deprive themselves, by too strict or efficacious an
application of the rules, of the gazes which would leave their face or
mouth only to return to their sex, their whips, and their hands, and
then start in all over again), but only when in all probability they
wanted to humiliate her. No matter how cruelly they treated her when
they had made up their minds to do so, she none the less never had the
courage, or the cowardice, to throw herself at their knees, and though
she submitted to them at times she never tempted or urged them on. As
for the rule of silence, it meant so little to her that, except in the
case of her lover, she did not once break it, replying by signals
whenever another girl would take advantage of their guards' momentary
distraction to speak to her. This was generally during meals, which were
taken in the room into which they had been ushered, when the tall valet
accompanying them had turned around to Jeanne. The walls were black and
the stone floor was black, the long table, of heavy glass, was black
too, and each girl had a round stool covered with black leather on which
to sit. They had to lift their skirts to sit down, and in so doing O
rediscovered, the moment she felt the smooth, cold leather beneath her
thighs, that first moment when her lover had made her take off her
stockings and panties and sit in the same manner on the back seat of the
car. Conversely, after she had left the château and, dressed like
everyone else except for the fact that beneath her innocuous suit or
dress she was naked, whenever she had to lift her petticoat and skirt to
sit down beside her lover, or beside another, were it on the seat of a
car or the bench of a cafe, it was the château she rediscovered, breasts
proffered in the silk bodices, the hands and mouths to which nothing was
denied, and the terrible silence. And yet nothing had been such a
comfort to her as the silence, unless it was the chains. The chains and
the silence, which should have bound her deep within herself, which
should have smothered her, strangled her, on the contrary freed her from
herself. What would have become of her if she had been granted the right
to speak and the freedom of her hands, if she had been free to make a
choice, when her lover prostituted her before his own eyes? True, she
did not speak as she was being tortured, but can moans and cries be
classed as words? Besides, they often stilled her by gagging. Beneath
the gazes, beneath the hands, beneath the sexes that defiled her, the
whips that rent her, she lost herself in a delirious absence from
herself which restored her to love and perhaps, brought her to the edge
of death. She was anyone, anyone at all, any one of the other girls,
opened and forced like her, girls whom she saw being opened and forced,
for she did see it, even when she was not obliged to have a hand in it.
Thus, less than twenty-four hours after her arrival, during her second
day there, she was taken after the meal into the library, there to serve
coffee and tend the fire. Jeanne, whom the black-haired valet had
brought back, went with her, as did another girl named Monique. It was
this same valet who took them there and remained in the room, stationed
near the stake to which O had been attached. The library was still
empty. The French doors faced wet, and in the vast, almost cloudless sky
the autumn sun slowly pursued its course, its rays lighting, on a chest
of drawers, an enormous bouquet of sulphur colored chrysanthemums which
smelled of earth and dead leaves.
"Did Pierre mark you last night?" the valet asked O.
She nodded that he had.
"Then you should show it," he said. Please roll up your dress."
He waited till she had rolled her robe up and behind, the way Jeanne had
done the evening before, and till Jeanne had helped her fasten it there.
Then he told her to light the fire. O's backside up to her waist, her
thighs, her slender legs, was framed in the cascading folds of green
silk and white linen. The five welts had turned black. The fire was
ready on the hearth, all O had to do was ignite the straw beneath the
kindling, which leaped into flame. Soon the branches of apple wood
caught, then the oak logs, which burned with tall, crackling, almost
colorless flames which were almost invisible in the daylight, but which
smelled good. Another valet entered and placed a tray filled with coffee
cups on the console, from which the lamp had been removed, then left the
room. O went over near the console, while Monique and Jeanne remained
standing on either side of the fireplace.
Just then two men came in, and the first valet in turn left the room. O
thought she recognized one of the men from his voice, one of those who
had forced her the previous evening, the one who had asked that her rear
be made more easily accessible. As she poured the coffee into the small
black and gold cups, which Monique handed around with the sugar, she
stole a glance at them. So it was this thin, blond boy, a mere
stripling, with an English air about him. He was speaking again; now she
was certain. The other man was also fair, thick set with a heavy face.
Both of them were seated in the big leather armchairs, their feet near
the fire, quietly smoking and reading their papers, paying no more heed
to the women than if they had not been there. Now and then the rustle of
a paper was heard, or the sound of coals falling on the hearth. From
time to time O put another long on the fire. She was seated on a cushion
on the floor beside the wood basket, Monique and Jeanne, also on the
floor, across from her. Their flowing skirts overlapped one another.
Monique's skirt was a dark red. Suddenly, but only after an hour had
elapsed, the blond boy called Jeanne, then Monique. He told them to
bring the ottoman (it was the same ottoman on which O had been
spread-eagled the night before). Monique did not wait for further
instructions, she kneeled down, bent over, her breasts crushed against
the first and holding both corners of the ottoman in her hands. When the
young man had Jeanne lift the red skirt, she did not stir. Jeanne was
then obliged to undo his clothing - and he gave her the order in the
most churlish manner - and take between her hands that sword of flesh
which had so cruelly pierced O at least once. It swelled and stiffened
beneath the closed palm, and O saw these same hands, Jeanne's tiny
hands, spreading Monique's thighs, into the hollow of which, slowly and
in short spasms which made her moan, the lad plunged.
The other man, who was watching in silence, motioned to O to approach
and, without taking his eyes off the spectacle, topped her forward over
one arm of his chair - and her raised skirt gave him an unhindered view
of her backside - and seized her womb with his hand.
It was in this position that René found her when, a minute later, he
opened the door.
"Please don't let me disturb you," he said, and he sat down on the
floor, on the same cushion where O had been sitting beside the fire
before she had been called. He watched her closely, and smiled every
time the hand which was holding her probed and returned, seizing both
front and rear apertures at once and working deeper and deeper as they
opened further, wrenching from her a moan which she could no longer
restrain.
Monique had long since gotten back to her feet; Jeanne was fiddling with
the fire in place of O. She brought René a glass of whisky, and he
kissed her hand as she handed it to him, then drank it down without
taking his eyes off O.
The man who was still holding her then said:
"Is she yours?"
"Yes," René replied.
"James is right," the other went on, "she's too narrow. She has to be
widened."
"Not too much, mind you," said James.
"Whatever you say," René said, getting to his feet. "You're a better
judge than I." And he rang.
For the next eight days, between dusk when her stint in the library came
to an end and that hour of the night - which was generally eight or ten
o'clock - when she was returned to her cell, in chains and naked beneath
her red cape, O wore an ebonite shaft simulating an erect male member
which was inserted behind and held in place by three small chains
connected to a leather belt around her hips, in such a way that the
internal movements of her muscles could not expel it. One little chain
followed the furrow of her buttocks, the two others the fold on either
side of the belly's triangle, in order not to prevent anyone from
penetrating that side if need be.
When René had rung, it was to have the coffer brought in which
contained, or one of whose compartments contained, an assortment of
small chains and belts, and whose other held a variety of these shafts,
ranging from the very thin to the very thick. They all had one feature
in common, namely that they flared at the base, to make it impossible
for them to slide up inside the body, an accident which might have
produced the opposite effect from that desired, that is it might have
allowed the ring of flesh to tighten up again, whereas the purpose of
the shaft was to distend it. Thus quartered, and quartered each day a
little more, for James, who made her kneel down, or rather lie prone, to
watch while Jeanne or Monique, or whichever girl happened to be there,
fastened the shaft that he had chosen, each day chose a thicker one. At
the evening meal, which the girls took together in the same refectory,
after their bath, naked and powdered O still wore it, and everyone could
see that she was wearing it, because of the little chains and the belt.
It was only removed, by the valet, when he came to chain her to the wall
for the night if no one had asked for her, or, if someone had, when he
locked her hands behind her if he had to take her to the library. Rare
were the nights when someone did not appear to make use of this passage
thus rapidly rendered as easy as, though still narrower than, the other.
After eight days there was no longer any need for an instrument, and O's
lover told her that he was happy she was now doubly open and that he
would make certain she remained so. At the same time, he warned her that
he was leaving and that she would not see him during the last seven days
that she was to spend in the château, before he came back to pick her up
and take her back to Paris.
"But I love you," he added, "I do love you. Don't forget me."
Oh, how could she forget him! He was the hand that blindfolded her, the
whip wielded by the valet Pierre, he was the chain above her head, the
unknown man who came down on her, and all the voices which gave her
orders were his voice. Was she growing weary? No. By dint of being
defiled and desecrated, it seems that she must have grown used to
outrages, by dint of being caressed, to caresses, if not to the whip by
dint of being whipped. A terrible surfeit of pain and pleasure should
have by slow degrees cast her upon benumbing banks, into a state
bordering on sleep or somnambulism. On the contrary. The bodice which
held her straight, the chains which kept her submissive, her refuge of
silence - these may have been responsible in part - as was the constant
spectacle of girls being handed over and used as she was and, even when
they were not, the spectacle of the constantly available bodies. Also
the spectacle and the awareness of her own body. Daily and, so to speak,
ceremoniously soiled with saliva and sperm, she felt herself literally
to be the repository of impurity, the sink mentioned in the Scriptures.
And yet those parts of her body most constantly offended, having become
less sensitive, at the same time seemed to her to have become more
beautiful and, as it were, ennobled: her mouth closed upon anonymous
members, the tips of her breasts constantly fondled by hands, and
between her quartered thighs the twin, contiguous paths wantonly
ploughed. That she should have been ennobled and gained in dignity
through being prostituted was a source of surprise, and yet dignity was
indeed from within, and her bearing bespoke calm, while on her face
could be detected the serenity and imperceptible smile that one surmises
rather than actually sees in the eyes of hermits.
When René had informed her that he was leaving, night had already
fallen. O was naked in her cell, and was waiting for them to come and
take her to the refectory. As for her lover, he was dressed as usual, in
a suit he wore every day in town. When he took her a suit he wore every
day in town. When he took her in his arms, the rough tweed of his
clothes irritated the tips of her breasts. He kissed her, lay her down
on the bed, lay down beside her and, tenderly and slowly and gently,
took her, alternating between the two tracks open to him, before finally
spilling himself into her mouth, which he then kissed again.
"Before I leave," he said, "I would like to have you whipped, and this
time I'll ask your permission. Do you agree?"
She agreed to it.
"I love you," he repeated. "Ring for Pierre."
She rang. Pierre chained her hands above her head, to the chain of the
bed. When she was thus bound, her lover kissed her again, standing
beside her on the bed. Again he told her that he loved her, then he got
down off the bed and nodded for Pierre. He watched her struggle, so
fruitlessly; he listened to her moans swell and become cries. When her
tears flowed, he sent Pierre away. She still found the strength to tell
him again that she loved him. Then he kissed her drenched face, her
gasping mouth, undid her bonds, laid her down, and left.
To say that O began to await her lover the minute he left her is a vast
understatement: she was henceforth nothing but vigil and night. During
the day she was like a painted countenance, whose skin is soft and mouth
is meek and - this was the only time she abided by the rule - whose eyes
were constantly lowered. She made and tended the fire, poured and
offered the coffee and liqueurs, lighted the cigarettes, she arranged
the flowers and folded the newspapers like a young girl in her parents'
living room, so limpid with her open neck and leather collar, her tight
bodice and prisoner's bracelets, that all it took for the men whom she
was serving was to order her to remain by their sides while they were
violating another girl to make them want to violate her as well; which
doubtless explains why she was treated worse than before. Had she
sinned? Or had her lover left her so that the very people to whom he had
loaned her would feel freer to dispose of her? In any case, the fact
remains that on the second day following his departure as, at nightfall,
she had just undressed and was looking in the bathroom mirror at the
almost vanished welts made by Pierre's riding crop on the front of her
thighs, Pierre entered. There were still two hours before dinner. He
told her that she would not dine in the common room and said to get
ready, pointing to the Turkish toilet in the corner, over which she had
to squat, as Jeanne had warned her she would in the presence of Pierre.
All the while she remained there he stood contemplating her, she could
see him in the mirrors, and see herself, and was incapable of holding
back the water which escaped from her body. He waited then until she had
bathed and powdered herself. She was going to get her mules and red cape
when he stopped her and added, fastening her hands behind her back, that
there was no need to, but that she should wait a moment for him. She sat
down on a corner of the bed. Outside it was storming, a tempest of cold
rain and wind, and the poplar tree near the window swayed back and forth
beneath the gusts. From time to time a pale wet leaf would splatter
against the windowpanes. It was as dark as in the middle of the night,
although the hour of seven had not yet struck, for autumn was well
advanced and the days were growing shorter.
When Pierre returned, he was carrying the same blindfold with which he
had blindfolded her the first evening. He also had a long chain, which
made a clanking noise, a chain similar to the one fastened to the wall.
O had the impression that he couldn't make up his mind whether to put
the blindfold or the chain on her first. She was gazing out at the rain,
not caring what they wanted from her, thinking only that René had said
he would come back, that there were still five days and five nights to
go, and that she had no idea where he was or whether he was alone and,
if he was not alone, who he was with. But he would come back. Pierre had
laid the chain on the bed and, without interrupting O's daydream, had
covered her eyes with the blindfold of black velvet. It was slightly
rounded below the sockets of her eyes, and fitted the cheekbones
perfectly, making it impossible to get the slightest peek or even to
raise the eyelids. Blessed darkness like unto her own night, never had O
greeted it with such joy, blessed chains that bore her away from
herself.
Pierre fastened the chain to the ring in her collar and invited her to
follow him. She got up, felt herself being pulled forward, and walked.
Her bare feet were icy cold on the tiles, and she gathered she was
following the hallway of the red wing; then the ground which was still
as cold, became rough underfoot: she was walking on a stone floor, made
of sandstone or granite. Twice the valet made her stop, she heard the
sound of a key in a lock, of a lock being turned and opened, then locked
again. "Careful of the steps," said Pierre, and she went down a
staircase, and once she stumbled. Pierre caught her around the waist. He
had never touched her except to chain or beat her, but here he was now
forcing her down onto the cold steps, which she tried to grasp with her
bound hands to keep from slipping, and he was talking her breasts. His
mouth moved from one to the other, and as he pressed against her, she
could feel him slowly rising. He did not help her up until he had taken
his pleasure with her. Damp and trembling with cold, she finally
descended the last steps and heard another door open, which she went
through and immediately felt a thick rug beneath her feet. There was
another slight tug on the chain, then Pierre's hands were loosing her
hands and untying her blindfold: she was in a round, vaulted room which
was very small and low: the walls and arches were of unplastered stone,
and the joints in the masonry were visible. The chain which was attached
to her collar was fastened to the wall by an eye-bolt opposite the door,
which was set about three feet above the floor and allowed her to move
no more than two steps forward. There was neither a bed nor anything
that might have served as a bed, nor was there any blanket, only three
or four Moroccan-type cushions, but they were out of reach and clearly
not intended for her. Within reach, however, in the niche from which
emanated the little light which lighted the room, was a wooden tray on
which were some water, fruit, and bread. The heat from the radiators,
which had been installed along the base of the walls and set into the
walls themselves to form around the entire room a sort of burning
plinth, was none the less insufficient to overcome the odor of earth and
mud which is the odor of ancient prisons and in old châteaux, of
uninhabited dungeons. In that hot semi-darkness, into which no sound
intruded, O soon lost all track of time. There was no longer any day or
night, the light never went out. Pierre, or some other valet - it hardly
mattered which - replaced the water, fruit, and bread on the tray
whenever it was gone, and took her to bathe in a nearby dungeon. She
never saw the men who came in, for each time a valet preceded them to
blindfold her eyes, and removed it only after they had left. She also
lost track of them, of who they were and how many there were, and
neither her soft hands nor her lips blindly caressing were ever able to
identify who they were touching. At times there were several, more often
only one, but each time, before they came near her, she was made to
kneel down facing the wall, the ring of her collar fastened to the same
eye-bolt to which the chain was attached, and whipped. She placed her
palms against the wall and pressed her face against the back of her
hands, to keep from scratching it against the stones; but scraped her
knees and her breasts on them. Thus she lost track of the tortures and
screams which were smothered by the vault. She waited. Suddenly time no
longer stood still. In her velvet night her chain was no unfastened. She
had been waiting for three months, three days, or ten days, or ten
years. She felt herself being wrapped in a heavy cloth, and someone
taking her by the shoulders and knees, lifting and carrying her. She
found herself in her cell, lying under the black fur cover, it was early
afternoon, her eyes were open, her hands free, and René was sitting
beside her, stroking her hair.
"You must get dressed now," he said, "we're leaving."
She took a hasty bath, he brushed her hair, handed her powder and
lipstick to her. When she returned to her cell, her suit, her blouse,
her slip, her stockings, and her shoes were on the foot of the bed, as
were her gloves and handbag. There was even the coat she wore over her
suit when the weather turned brisk, and a square silk scarf to protect
her neck, but no garter belt or panties. She dressed slowly, rolling her
stockings down to just above her knees, and she did not put on her
suitcoat because it was very warm in her cell. Just then, the man who
had explained on the first evening what would be expected of her, came
in. He unlocked the collar and bracelets that had held her captive for
two weeks. Was she freed of them? Or did she have the feeling that
something was missing? She said nothing, scarcely daring to run her
hands over her wrists, not daring to lift them to her throat.
Then he asked her to choose, from among the exactly identical rings
which he showed to her in a small wooden box, the one which fit her left
ring finger. They were strange iron rings, banded with gold inside, and
the signet was wide and as massive as that of an actual signet ring, but
it was convex, and for design bore a three-spoked wheel inlaid in gold,
with each spoke spiraling back upon itself like the solar wheel of the
Celts. The second ring she tried, though a trifle snug, fit her exactly.
It was heavy on her hand, and the gold gleamed as though furtively in
the dull gray of the polished iron. Why iron, and why gold, and this
insignia she did not understand? It was impossible to talk in this room
draped in red, where the chain was still on the wall above the bed,
where the black, still rumpled cover was lying on the floor, this room
into which the valet Pierre might emerge, was sure to emerge, absurd in
his opera outfit, in the dull light of November.
She was wrong, Pierre did not appear. René had her put on the coat to
her suit, and her long gloves, which covered the bottom of her sleeves.
She took her scarf, her bag, and carried her coat over her arm. The
heels of her shoes made less noise on the hallway floor than had her
mules, the doors were closed, the antechamber was empty. O was holding
her lover by the hand. The stranger who was accompanying them opened the
wrought-iron gates which Jeanne had said were the enclosure, which was
now no longer guarded by valets or dogs. He lifted one of the green
velvet curtains and ushered them both through. The curtains fell back
into place. They heard the gate closing. They were alone in another
antechamber which looked onto the lawn. All there was left to do was
descend the steps leading down from the stoop, before which O recognized
the car.
She sat down next to her lover, who took the wheel and started off.
After they had left the grounds, through the porte-cochere that was wide
open, he stopped a few hundred meters farther on and kissed her. It was
on the outskirts of a small, peaceful town, which they crossed through
as they continued on their route. O was able to read the name on the
road sign: Roissy.